I wish I could go on that vacation you asked me to go to with you
But today is not that day
I wish I could sit in the sand and gaze at the sea
I wish i could smile at myself and say i’m alright
But today is not that day
Today I’m drowning in dread,
Breathing in short gasps at 3 in the morning
Wondering if its today that I die
Today I’m nauseous
Today I’m sick
Today my heart hurts
Today I’m dying
Today I..
I cry for you You who has been taken from this world Not too soon or too late But by your own volition I have wished to join you all many times During nearly silent nights where muffled sobs rang out softly And bright sunny days where waterfalls rushed out plentifully You seemingly happy human…
I can’t sing with you here I can’t dance with you here I can’t smile with you here I can’t laugh with you here I can’t breathe with you here
You ever have a feeling that you’re destined for more? I have this feeling every day. A feeling that I’m meant to mean something to people. Like I brought meaning to their lives in some way or created something that sticks to their minds instead of all the daily things we read and promptly forget….
Its 3:00 am and I’m drowning again You come to my room and perch on my back Dragging me back to shore Thank you I can breathe better now
I’m here again In front of a candle It is lit, it wanes , it roars It scares me I’m hesitant to let it guide me What if I drop it? Like I’ve done the others? A candle graveyard Lies behind me Melted beyond recognition Shame is mixed into the soppy wax of these past…
Living is overstimulating Let me be a stone